transition

Im surprised at my morning prayer today. I don't know where it came from but it seems to have sprung from the deepest recess of my heart.

It's funny that the first person i thought of the moment I woke up today is the guy I've been crushing on for almost 2months now. I've met him way way back and never saw him the way i see him now until we got close, became seatmates and chatted for a short yet sensible moment. That was like, my sleeping heart leapt from deep slumber. After that first encounter, i tried to erase every memory of him, still scared to entertain thoughts of a possible lovelife since i just came from a major heartbreak. But destiny is really playing on me. As time went by we became closer and closer, and i got to realize that we have so much in common. And i am even surprised that i can be myself around him: i can chat all day at any topic and goof around without reservation. The tough girl that I am didnt even hesitate to get out of my shell when i am near him.

As i relish this new found friendship, ironically, i pray that my feelings for him would eventually fade. If this person isn't meant to stay long in my life, I hope he'd just go while still in this early stage. After several failed relationships, i don't want this to be another failure. So before I totally fall in love with this person, i pray that I may be given the courage to simply walk away.

Change

People and things change constantly.  And sometimes, these changes cause people to drift apart.

Through the years I've seen changes as they affect me.  Moving out of an old neighborhood, taking a new job, death and losing a loved-one.  Changes, both positive and negative, contribute to who you are at present.

I've gone a lot of change myself, coping with gains and losses in this life.  In every decision or undertaking, there is change.

Feelings, like our surroundings, change.  The people who you esteem so high before may be the person you least admire now.  Couples break apart because of certain "change of heart".  People go astray when there is a shift in priorities.

As change affect me, either positively or negatively, I know I shouldn't fret. Somewhere, someone or something is also changing for me.  Changing to fit my needs perfectly.

And amidst these changes, there is one thing I can count on:  the Love of God is constant .